after the cry

sometimes i really hate being a girl. girls are emotional beings. esp during that time of the month. n being emotional inevitably leads to irrationality, n thus, making us vulnerable. sigh.

my eyes still look abit weird - due to the buckets i cried on sunday nite. ma was like, "why do u have mi mi yan?" when i woke up yest.

i'm okay. i always try to make it a point to settle and figure out all my tots n feelings b4 i slp, so that the next day can be a better one.

he dropped by juz to see me last nite. i wasn't ecstatic coz he did hurt me the nite b4...... but i was glad he did coz it allowed us to tok things thru and make things right again. =)

loving is really a conscious choice. a willingness to give, to sacrifice, to accomodate, to forgive, to accept, to change.

n i'm oh so glad that that willingness is in the both of us. i hope it always will.


~~~ Angela 3:13 PM

Today

woke up ard 9, but continued to lay in bed - felt like a lazy bum.
packed my wardrobe - like being tidy n organised.
breakfast @ shunfu market, vegetarian beehoon - good food. love it
visit to several nurseries - i like greenaries, flowers and deco, wood is not all that bad.
home waiting for feng to arrive - tired, fell aslp.
problem with my desktop - frustrated. he couldn't make it right.
bus ride to bugis - sweet.
met boss - hmmmm.
dinner @ v8 - soso food, fun company, lousy cheesecake.
call from diana - sad, sad, sad.
busride home with perverty guy nxt to me - nervous but all ready to shout "oei" if he tries anything funny.
home...... sweet home.
________________________________________________________________

i'm really feeling rather sad. bcoz of d. for d. there's so little i can do to help. =(
how do u help heal a broken heart??



~~~ Angela 11:04 PM

exam's finally over

Woo-hoo!!! =)
actually 3 papers is really not that bad... altho exams juz equals to sian. n i hate studying.

so anyway, i'm free now =) can ask me out okay???! i'll gladly abide! haha!
will be @ cf camp next week.... then might be working too....... hmm... then b4 we all know it, it'll be christmas!! yay! =) then it'll be my darling's bday... then happy new year! aiyohz~ so fast horz, time flies....... without waiting for all of us. yikes! n i'm still in my princessy dreams. ha!


~~~ Angela 11:47 PM

my jap name

My japanese name is 秋本 Akimoto (autumn book) 愛恵 Itoe (bless with love).

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yes, i am bored from mugging. i think my jap name turned out quite nice. =)
ps: if u cant see the chinese characters, set ur encoding to 'unicode'

~~~ Angela 6:57 PM

enjoying BSB songs while loathing accounting

i'm sick of accounting. =( why izzit compulsory for econs students to take acctg courses? economists shld concentrate on sketching ultra-simplified graphs and applying supposedly-rational theories to situations of this assumed rational world. bleah, n not on balancing numbers. haiz...

was listening to my old collection of backstreet boys songs...... gosh. those were the days man. listening to them day in day out. haha, brings back lots of memories. i still love their songs today. =) can sing along to practically any one of them.

was thinking........................ if someone were to sing some cheesy BSB song to me with all sincerity (eg anywhere for u), n present me with a 1 carat diamond ring........ gosh, think i'll marry him without thinking twice. =p


~~~ Angela 10:19 PM

his princess

he said, "Goodnight, princess"

yay! i was delighted. hahahaha! =)


~~~ Angela 1:25 AM

y am i not a princess?

meishi said: you're a queen....... that's why.

hahahaha!
as many of u haf oredi guessed, yes, i juz watched princess diaries 2.

haiz....... y cant i be a princess? own jet, own palace, 2 personal housemaids, own suite with such a fantastic bed, entire room as an attached wardrobe that's automated, beautiful gardens, own horse and large hall with grand staircase where mattress surf can be played on. oh rite, n of coz, beautiful tiara n ball gowns.

sigh. i would so rather be a pretty princess residing in some grand castle worrying myself abt how i shld rule my people, convince the parliament that i can be a good queen n providing a better life for my people, than be stuck here supposedly slogging away for the upcoming exams.


~~~ Angela 11:57 PM

she's the one

these 3 words i came across on frenster today somehow affected me. i haf no idea why.

reminded me of tree's blog entry abt the heart of the matter - forgiveness. maybe i've not totally forgiven him?

stepping into that relationship was certainly one of my biggest regret. wait, i think it might be my only regret so far. i dare say, he didn't love me at all. all he ever did was to try to fulfill his responsibilities as a bf, n even that, he didn't fair well.

never once did he say anything like that. instead he used to always ask me wat love is. i was juz plain silly. living in my own illusion of his love for me.

it has long been over n i'm glad i've left it behind me. learnt so much along the way; altho its a regret, i'm still thankful... God has allowed me to see things so much clearer now.

so why does those 3 words (a caption for a pix with his current gf) still stir up unexplainable emotions in me?

sigh.


~~~ Angela 10:03 PM

disgusting indian

i'm so totally disgusted by this indian guy in my twc class.

there was a grp presenting about their invention, hydrogenie - smthg that has alotta similarities with the osim water vacuum cleaner, juz that its got extra iron steamer, etc. so anyway, they were answering a question about how their machine can clean up the grime in btw tiles. they said "basically it breaks n sucks [the grime]"
then that indian said, "u mean blow and suck."

YUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n this is not like the first time he's saying such things in class.

pls remind me to keep far far away from him. no, i dun need any reminders. dot n i have oredi blacklisted him.


~~~ Angela 3:14 PM

my funky converse on Dot's bday

wore my black converse high cut canvas shoes with shocking pink laces and colourful insides to school today. didn't really want to as i always tot it inappropraite sch footwear, but it goes well with wat i was wearing, n since i had presentation today, it's better to wear shoes instead of slippers.

dot made a big fuss outta it. hahaha! too bad my size is like 5, too small for her, cant let her try. my shoes turned alot of heads while i was walking ard... (sadly, not bcoz of me... haha), plus the fact that dot kept saying to everyone she knew, "look at her shoes!! so funky rite??!" i was flattered by the attention... but i guess its inevitable since my shoes are really very pretty! =) loved it the moment i saw it in hk.

was dot's bday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOROTHY!!! =) hope u had a fun n enjoyable time with mr peng.

mktg proj mtg, mktg quiz, mpw rehearsal, mpw presentation. all went smoothly lah... altho i felt i embarrassed myself abit during my presentation by being abit too enthu, but that always happens to me, so i guess its fine. ha~

konked out totally for 2 hours after i got home. juz too tired from all the late nites n hectic schedules.....okay, off to study for FA quiz tmr.


~~~ Angela 11:12 PM

my kind of guys.

i realised i have a thing for guys who
1) have a high bridge
2) big eyes
3) nice smile
4) bespectacled
5) look decent n intelligent

tend to notice them more.......... i guess that explains shannon, patrick, xavier, n of course, feng.


~~~ Angela 10:41 PM

To Diana

it hurts me to know that u're in so much pain. i've tried contacting u... but i guess u didn't reply coz u oso din know wat to say. its true that frens cant help to solve ur relationship problems, but i juz wan u to know that i'm here for u if u need anything ok?

reading ur blog brings tears to my eyes. although we've never been really close frens, u occupy a special place in my heart for being the dear fren who used to sing "This is the Day" together with me every morning when we arrived in school. the fren whom i spent afternoons with at S11 observing drinks-aunties for our weird project. 1 of the siudo-s way back in sec2. 1 of the few frens i feel totally at ease with to tok abt anything. the only ny classmate i could count on after my breakup with calvin. thanx for being there for me at that time. i hope i can do the same now.

be strong dear diana. i remember writing to u b4 that boyfrens ain't everything and musn't be ur everything. no matter how much we love them, we must be clear that we do not live our lives for them, but for ourselves (and God).

give urself time my dear. it is very tough, but time heals all wounds. trust me k? i've been there, done that. i understand that ur situation now is quite different from wat i experienced, so i cant say that i totally understand how u're feeling rite now. but in the meantime, i advise that u give each other space. being good frens with him now, will only hurt u more becoz at this point of time, many emotions, u still cant control.

exams are around the corner. do try to concentrate on ur studies no matter how hard it is to, ok? i'll be praying for u. i'm sure after all these experiences, u'll emerge a stronger n more beautiful woman. =)

jiayou diana! hope that we can both look forward to every brand new day with as much zest and joy as we did b4.

love, liyi

ps: add me to ur msn! egnaro_angel@yahoo.com.sg


~~~ Angela 11:39 PM

learn something new everyday

BOSS is damn irritating. grrrr......... my nxt term's schedule will prob be 3 days. but each day is from 0830 - 1845. sigh, i cant decide. or shld i spread it out to 4 days?? hmm........

learnt today: the stepmaster definitely burns more calories than the treadmill. am i slow or wat.


~~~ Angela 6:31 PM

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