meeting up with good frens is such a joy =) n yes, i was in the same outfit for both occasions, haha.

friday nite, went for a christian musical (http://www.love-above-all.org/) with CCC (cheesecake club) minus yuhan, ie xiayi, kelly n yushan. the musical was impressive! i think daniel's church did a great job! n it was soo good to see the girls again!

n today, met up with dear dear dear joanna. there's always so much to tok abt! 5hours together seemed to pass like a flash n couldnt bear to part. haha.

its really amazing how God knits people's hearts together as good frens. like how u share n truly feel each others' joy, sorrow n worries. how i thank God for my angels on earth. =)

~~~ Angela 11:40 PM

i think he knows. that i'm still reading his blog. he seems to be getting on fine with life, dating girls for dinner one-on-one regularly. he has moved on. there's nothing surprising to that,
but still, reading abt his dates gets to me.

last nite i read "i still cant forgive her for giving up". hmm i suspected as much. whenever i log on to gmail, he'll immediately change his status to busy. he nv appears online on msn anymore n even removed me as a fren on facebook. hmm its really not as if i'll initiate chat with him or anything.

told my best fren sometime ago... "i wished he understood. but i know thats asking too much of him." she replied, "he's supposedly the 'victim', he wont."

yup...... i oso dunno how to continue this entry. xiayi exclaimed over msn the other day, "stop reading his blog!"......

i'm not looking back, i've not since that email i wrote him. just that i dun understand why i still care.

its his blog. he has every right to write watever he want. its just me... i shld just take xiayi's advice.

~~~ Angela 5:44 PM

about events

the original VIVACE committee, 2004

the original VIVACE poster that i so loved. designed by my angel n senior fr HC. n which totally beats the bean-man icon of VIVACE06.

~~~ Angela 4:23 PM

things seem to be looking up =)

today, i wore this pair of trousers. i last wore it in 2003 and thereafter, it wouldn't fit - couldn't even buckle. hahaha, but still, since it was in such a good condition, i refused to throw away/donate it. trust me, i have lots of such clothes in my wardrobe that my mum always nags at me to do smthg abt. but lalalalalala...... yay! i can wear them again! why? coz i've lost weight! duh. ask me out n see the difference for urself! LOL.

~~~ Angela 6:56 PM

another day of slacking at home. booboo. feel so fei4 not doing anything n just waiting........

read the sat papers abt class of 2007 being "the lucky lot". hmmmmm, funny. why do i not share the same sentiments? given all my free time, i've been thinking abt it... why haf i not landed a job when i've got a double degree n graduated with cum laude? my cv's not that bad either.... n i'm rarely nervous during interviews. maybe i've just been applying to the wrong jobs. its really weird, my whole job search experience...... i cant think of an answer.

but i've not lost hope or confidence. misquoting dory in finding nemo: just keep praying just keep praying just keep praying =)

had dinner with justin on fri, n he said i'm in "religious mode" recently in all my blog entries. hahah. experiencing God is a wonderful thing n definitely smthg i like to share abt.

took a different route home after fri's dinner which brought me past the playground. made me think abt the times i spent with calvin, feng n even dory there. spent the most time there with calvin, just playing on ths swing, sitting on the bench n looking up at the nite sky - my young n foolish n hopeless romantic days. an actual relationship w dory didn't even begin, so i wld categorise it as just flirting. whereas for feng, memories at the playground were good n happy ones. one place, three guys, all just memories.

went back to sch on sat with a couple of frens to try to capture some memories of our new campus for eternity. goodbye smu, i'm glad my time with u is over.



~~~ Angela 6:16 PM

Jupiter reminds

i really like my church n the messages i receive from the pulpit everyweek that are always so informative, remindful, stirring n applicable. thank God for a church that teaches the Word so fervently n truthfully.

our senior pastor included a little did-you-know tidbit in his sermon this week. it was abt jupiter being a divine vacuum cleaner that sucks clean any comets n meteorites that are heading earth's way due to its overwhelming gravitational pull, n thus sustains human life on our fragile earth. (http://www.solarsystem.org.uk/jupiter/) without jupiter, can u imagine how much damage our planet will receive from all this space garbage?

i was veryvery interested in the solar system n stars when i was young. of all the books in my enclycopedia series, Child Craft, i only regularly took out the book on "World n Space" to study abt the different constellations n characteristics of the various planets. i was fascinated with all this universe stuff that is so beyond my reach n even dreamt of being an astronaut. i also worked on this interest for my O levels' art project where my fabric design was based on the ideas of greek mythology n planets since the latter was named after greek gods.

so when paster toked abt this particular tidbit that i nv read abt, i was greatly touched n immediately teared. hahah. not bcoz he included planets in his sermon, but bcoz, here i was being so self-focused on my insignificant being n my job (or lackof) n not totally trusting our almighty God who created the heavens n earth n the entire universe with all its wonder n mystery. there's soo many things that i'm not aware of that God is doing for me every moment of my life! i mean, altho the creation of jupiter and its role as a vacuum cleaner affects the entire human race, its also for my survival too. most importantly, God bankrupted heaven and gave ALL, the best, His only Son, to His children on earth just so we can be reconciled with Him.

wat more can i ask? wat reason is there for not trusting totally n committing everything into His hands? none! nil! ...........................my bad.

~~~ Angela 11:32 PM

Commencement 07

it was a happy occasion. altho the speeches were damn boring. the best part was our valedictorian's - alvina, who was my pri sch classmate n rather good fren in pri4! - speech. so happy that she got the award, she is totally deserving. too bad din manage to get a pic with her... think i've managed to get pix with most pple whom i wanted to. haha, u realise how few rite..... that's smu to me.

i've officially graduated. darn. where's my job?....

~~~ Angela 12:14 AM

Hillsong - More Than Life

~~~ Angela 2:22 PM

i dun expect anyone to understand my decision............. bcoz even now, even I, dun fully understand. i still struggle every single day, every single moment. n soo many times, i hafta remind myself to just breathe. breathe, n that moment will be over. breathe, n maybe i'll be just that little closer to that point of understanding.

everyday, i feel like i'm living in a daze..... time is just passing me by. i wonder if its the medication, or maybe the high fever has really done some irreversible damage to my brain.

i haven't smiled, as in really smile, for the longest time. i wonder when that will change.

i wish things could change. i wish i could go back. why izzit that 2 ppl who love each other cant be together?? but i cant go back n its taking every ounce of my willpower to say i wont every waking moment of my life.

There's a reason He has decided to disrupt my plans. God's ways are higher than mine. He will fulfill His purpose in me. He has chosen me; I shouldn't be afraid. Trust, just trust in God. Hold on and hold still. He will not fail me.

~~~ Angela 5:08 PM

Closure.

Dear feng,

i haven't been feeling well this couple of days, mainly due to a serious case of cold that has left me un-functionable. this weakness made me yearn for someone close by to hold n make all things alright. that's why its been an exceptionally painful week.

i guess wat u wrote on ur blog made it worse.

u loved me alot. i know. but how can u deny my love for you after all i've done for you? after everything i've shared with you, after all that i've given you.

you loved me and i loved you back. and my love was true. but God has called me to take a different path and i have chosen to obey.

this journey is so painful precisely bcoz my feelings for you were true and still exists.


i guess it doesn't matter anymore wat u think. maybe u'll feel better by convincing urself that i didn't/don't love u.

so think wat you want. i just pray u'll heal soon n same for me.

its my turn to say goodbye. i dun need you to validate me or my love no more. neither will i look back anymore.

thank you for letting me go without a fight. goodbye feng. may you experience God n his love everyday in a very real way.

ps: i left a note in your inuyasha case, hope u saw it.


A

~~~ Angela 7:16 PM

Romans 8:18-25

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.

We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

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~~~ Angela 5:33 PM

my life is so depressing. my heart aches everyday. my pillow is soaked with tears everynight. when, oh when?! will i heal? just when?! will my broken heart be mended?

i want to go Home.

goodbye.

~~~ Angela 4:28 PM

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