after 2 extremely boring 1st 2 days at work this week when i totally felt like an intern, searching 4 things to do, trying my best to occupy myself.... the bomb just fell straight on my lap on wed.
1.25yrs into my current role, i was getting bored stiff. n unexpectedly, this opportunity for change was served to me on a platter. i didn't grab it instantly tho.... it was too sudden and i was scared and apprehensive knowing wat it entails.... (which btw doesn't include a raise =.=)
sigh, how can i shine my small small light in the thick darkness??? i've no idea!! the mountains are too high for me rite now and i cant imagine wat its gonna be like. all i know is that it's a good move for career progression.
do not be afraid and commit my way to Him, was His instruction. despite my fears, i accepted, n i'll work hard to do as He says.
~~~ Angela 11:54 PM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
蝴蝶 by 陶喆
I'm hooked on this old, unpublicised song. The lyrics are sooo wat i feel - a love song for my Lord.
its pretty stupid since it wasn't even an official relationship. but...... i cant deny the hurt. a girl's heart is really so vulnerable. its wat i got myself in ultimately. sigh.... well, i tot he was different, i tot he could be trusted with my heart. i was extra careful this time, but still, i was wrong, as always. the change of a man's heart is beyond my control - not a first in my life.
"i'm sorry", he said. if only those 2 words can heal a broken heart. sadly, i've come to realised that men no matter how godly are mere fallen men too. we all are, that's why we need God's grace so desperately.
and God is gracious. He gave me stomach flu so that i can nurse both my tummy n heart at home this 2 days, n dun hafta put on a brave front at work n be around pple when all i wan is to be in the safety of my home.
the Lord gives; the Lord takes away. that was what i felt at the very beginning of this relationship. and sure enough, it turned out to be this, in the end. i'm glad its a big black bolded fullstop now. we're back to where we should have been. very glad and thankful. :) its the end of this relationship, but just the start of a deeper one with my God. i'll be strong again ;)
~~~ Angela 9:43 PM
Sunday, August 02, 2009
we were watching the taiwan drama series mama is hooked on when she suddenly told me she needed to sleep awhile n was feeling very tired. n sure enough, despite the volume from the tv, she fell aslp quite instantly, sitting upright at her original position. i looked on and only felt abit more relieved when i heard her breathing. n totally relieved when she awoke after her 5min nap. i was so worried mama would leave me like that suddenly.... bcoz that was how grandpa left.
~~~ Angela 10:49 PM
Saturday, August 01, 2009
blogging has more or less become a weekly update. n this week has been.... well..... interestingly up n down.
the interesting happening was a SDU networking event which i went for on wed evening, with the main programme being a handwriting analysis talk. it's certainly a different experience (n amusing) being in a setting where they deliberately force interaction among the opposite sexes. n contrary to popular belief, the participants are not so desperate n ugly. all pretty normal pple, like me! haha, of coz there weren't any drop dead gorgeous types.
the highlight of the week must be the prayer meetings i went for. 3 sessions of 2-2.5hrs.... after struggling with issues at work n my current station in life, God transacted so much with me this week and once again showed me what a personal God He is =)
~~~ Angela 10:55 PM
About Me
The KING's princess
made to worship
wants to be like a fresh lily in a secluded valley by the crystal stream
