mum n i started on our shopping frenzy even b4 korea! bought a total of 5 pairs of shoes all in one shot! 3 for me n 2 for her. haha =) hafta beat the GST hike coz by the time we return, its july! oh, n i couldn't resist this lovely baby pink hat that i'll prob bring along for my trip.
more seriously, i think she was trying to cheer me up, knowing my predicament. just the other day - friday - she secretly went to buy 2 pretty minnie mouse tees just to make me happy! n she sure did. i was v touched bcoz i only casually mentioned that i liked that design as we walked past the shop the previous week. yupyup, my mummy loves me alot n she is definitely the greatest blessing from God ever.
My Father is so loving, kind n gracious. He'll surely bring me thru..... All i hafta do is lean on Him =) Hopefully this trip will be a restful one n i'll return refreshed n all ready to take on watever comes (or maybe, not come) my way.
~~~ Angela 11:24 PM
Saturday, June 23, 2007
breaking up with the guy i love. handling rejections after rejections in my job search. being jobless. not getting that one job i so desire. grappling with issues regarding my passion. facing the total uncertainty of tomorrow alone.
i believe that all this is happening for a reason. a reason i cant comprehend right now.
but God knows n sees all my struggles. He makes no mistakes. His grace is sufficient for me. His power is made perfect in my weakness.
today wasn't a better day. i'm at the lowest point of my life. it can only go up from here. The Lord is my helper, I shall not be afraid. i'll continue singing praises everyday.
~~~ Angela 1:17 AM
Friday, June 22, 2007
my sucky 23rd
i dont remember a single bday that was worst than today's.
the only one that came slightly close was my 15th. the entire june hols was filled with table tennis trainings, church stuff n assignments. n i was really hoping for a rest n smthg special on my bday. but yet another training fell on my bday n i had to be present n set a good eg, being VP n all. so i went for training as per normal n tot that my teammates will prob present me with a card or at least smthg after training. but no, nothing. nobody remembered. like, can u imagine??? we were a small team, just 7 of us in my batch! n nobody remembered.... sigh, n i was training with these pple 3 times every week. so u can imagine how upset i was.
but thankfully, i haf a marvelous mum who picked me up after training n surprised me with a bouquet of 15 fresh tulips which totally cheered me up.
from that experience, i learnt NEVER to expect anything from frens on my bday - whether best frens, close frens or just ordinary frens. bcoz without expectations, i wont get hurt or upset.
as with the past years, i didn't expect frens to remember my bday. more significantly, i didn't expect feng to wanna wish me happy bday. but he did more than that. he left presents at my gate - a christian book, hairclip n necklace. in fact, its the most thoughtful present i've ever received from him. i was at home all along n he only msged me abt the present after he left.
me: thank you, you shouldn't have. i'm sorry. him: dun be sorry. you made the right decision. goodbye.
i wept uncontrollably. n am still doing the same as i'm writing this now.
altho i was the one who broke up with him, it izzant easy on my part too. i've been trying really hard to be strong n cheery, but the truth is i am so not.
unlike him who encouraged his frens to intro cute gals to him on his blog today, i'm gonna say: pls dun intro cute guys to me. i'm not ready. please, as my fren, just talk to me whenever u see me online, call me to chat, email me, date me. i'll really appreciate it. its not everyday i ask for help n i'm learning to be not afraid to.
thanks to all frens who remembered my birthday today, u know who u are. hugz.
i'll be better tmr n the day after n beyond.
~~~ Angela 12:17 AM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
i'm twenty-three
altho i dun really haf much in mind to write, the occasion just calls for an entry of reflection.
i'm actually 23. i cant really believe it simply bcoz i dun feeeel 23. i remember those teenage days when i look up at older sisters serving in youth minsitry n thinking how old 20+ sounded n how grown up they were. sigh, actually i dun know how old i feel. definitely not 15 - the mood swings are gone n i'm not as boy-crazy anymore. definitely not 18 - not as naive or excitable. maybe 21... yeah i still feel 21. haha, this means i haven't matured much in thinking during the past 2 years. haha..... watever. i totally do not look 23.
its kinda sad that as i was sorting out my cam's SD cards today, getting ready for my korea trip next week, i realised there were some photos me n feng took on my last bday which i forgot all abt n haf nv looked at them until just now.
in a blink, 1 full yr has passed. so many things haf happened. i completed 2 rather unmeaningful internships, graduated from smu (like, finally!), did rather well in my last yr but not good enough to pull up my 1st yr's lousy results, have officially joined the ranks of the unemployed and broke the heart of the guy i tot i'll marry.
hmm... the list doesn't seem long. liyi's 22nd year on earth really wasn't all that significant. still, i'm a work in progress n altho i took a wrong turn along the way, i think i'm heading in the right direction now. =)
at age 23, this is my desire, this is my song.
haha, its like a youtube overload this couple of entries. =P but watever. Happy Birthday to me =)
~~~ Angela 12:50 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
avril lavigne slipped away live
WHO am i kidding?!
i still cry.
~~~ Angela 12:39 AM
Monday, June 18, 2007
Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry
peter petreli of Heroes! woohoo
~~~ Angela 6:26 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
just afew pix from my trip. didn't use my cam that much so that's all i haf. n this slide show thingy is so fun! :) u'll definitely see more of it in future. =p
~~~ Angela 11:59 PM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
frens who made me roll my eyes n laugh
Friend 1 = Patrick Scene: on mrt to changi airport, me sending him off
him: thanks for spending so much time with me throughout my trip here. me: welcome, its my pleasure. i like ur company. pause. him: so when will u start working for me?
Friend 2 = Charles Scene: walking ard some quiet streets in melaka, me making small talk
me: charles, do u have any brothers or sisters? him: no...... i am the only charles.
~~~ Angela 12:14 AM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
stomach flu
veryvery rough day today. vomitted like 4 times. i absolutely hate puking. n thankfully i dun usually puke. the last time i remember was in primary sch..... my illnesses are usually fever, phelgm, colds, stomachaches, fainting spells n diarrhea. anyway, am still feeling bloated n aching all over.
but i thank God this happened today instead of yest or the day b4.
its just a trial and really made me experience - Joy is not the absence of suffering but the presence of God.
~~~ Angela 10:47 PM
Monday, June 11, 2007
juzthin n eva's happily ever after
a very simple affair with just some relatives and a few frens. yet, it was its simplicity that brought out wat is most impt in any union of 2 souls. it was such an honour n great pleasure to share in their joy today. i haf no doubt that for these 2 kind, sweet souls, forever is here to stay. Congratulations!!
~~~ Angela 9:26 PM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
9 june 2007
its official. after 2 years n 10 months, the we/us/our between me n feng is no more. its over.
dun think i'll like to discuss it here. but if u're a good fren, ask me out/ write me/ contact me. i can do with some company. =)
kudos to wenshan n her guy who accompanied me the whole afternoon today n even convinced me to watch shrek3 with them. thankew so much.
indeed, God's love n grace is even more evident in trying times.
~~~ Angela 11:16 PM
Friday, June 08, 2007
a post for me
123 pages of precious memory. a record of all our words and exchanges and feelings.
i dread tmr. it will be a date i'll remember forever. still, its a painful consequence i'll hafta face.
i wanna venture into a world unknown. a new, unfamiliar and mysterious place. a place where everyday i wake up full of life n vigor. a place where i challenge myself in mind, in heart and in spirit. a place where i will tap into my innermost potential n strength and become that better person i'd always known i should have been.
~~~ Angela 9:35 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Psalm 119 : 28-40
My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word. Keep me from deceitful ways; be gracious to me through your law. I have chosen the way of truth; I have set my heart on your laws. I hold fast to your statutes, O Lord; do not let me be put to shame. I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free. Teach me, O Lord, to follow your decrees; then I will keep them to the end. Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart. Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight. Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain. Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word. Fulfill your promise to your servant, so that you may be feared. Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good. How I long for your precepts! Preserve my life in your righteousness.
