Sunday, January 16, 2005
broken
sometimes i am so weak, its disgusting. only 15days into the new year and i've wept. i seriously dun like sobbing and weeping. my eyes are so swollen now, its a chore juz to keep them open. going out into the sun is worse. n i look like my whole face is swollen coz of my puny eyes. everything in me seems broken, feel so empty inside.
sigh. i really hope this year will get better soon. some frens are happier this year. eg Diana who's coping better now and Deedee who finally got accepted into his dream uni. =) i'm real happy for them.
as for me... i realised that the past really does come back to haunt you. especially regrets. and because of that, the future seems even more unclear. but i guess, this is where faith comes in.
"No one is complete until he has been out into the surge of the storm and has found the glorious fulfillment of the prayer 'O God, take me, break me, make me.'"
-Streams in the Desert, pg34
so it all boils down to a quote from a previous entry -- i'm still a work in progress.
~~~ Angela 1:15 PM
