Saturday, April 23, 2005
SMUve woes
had to go back sch for a last min SMUve mtg today which lasted till... i dunno, coz i couldn't take it anymore n juz left at 4pm. i mean, i was oredi late in meeting deedee lohz. cant be bothered anymore.
SMUve stuff is really getting on my nerves these days. patience is running extremely thin. wish everything will juz leave me alone for awhile, really do need a much-needed break. sigh. i think we have all been overworked so much so that we've lost the drive and motivation. ok, maybe i'm speaking more for myself lah......... i dunno, but i get irritated with the new manager (yes, a different one this time. the 4th!!!!!) very easily. she doesn't seem to know wats of priority, doesn't know how to guide the comm back to discuss wat is important, seems so afraid of top management and will succumb to their decisions without fighting for wat the students hav planned. sigh. i really dun understand. dun know how to be more understanding. she is supposed to have loads of experience in events management, but i juz dun see it lehz....
i'm really trying to be patient. but during today's meeting, when yvonne, jiali and I were discussing the actual route of the procession - which is the crux of the program - she was "bz" segregating the job scope of each comm member - which was totally unneccessary and untimely. and when yvonne told the rest of the comm the confirmed route, she and may were still talking abt the job scope. i said loudly, "i think everyone shld listen to this." she stopped for like a few secs then carried on with the job scope thingy. sigh. and later on, yvonne and i had to go thru the entire route with her again. and that was when she brought out her objections. if she had listened on juz now, we wouldn't have wasted such time lah! and that was when i really wanted to strangle her.
i'm sorry, but i cant help feeling that i am juz merely a student. someone who enjoys doing events so much so that i'm willing to sacrifice my time, money, effort, beauty slp, internship opportunities etcetc for the sake of the event. in others' eyes, i'm dumb. but i cant care less coz i love doing this. but even so, do not take me for granted. i am not ur slave. if this carries on, u'll probably kill my passion and i might start to think that the others are right.
~~~ Angela 11:18 PM
