Thursday, April 07, 2005
untimely, unnecessary insecurities
my boyfren, an ntu final yr student, will be pursuing his postgrad studies in nus come july.
i'm very happy for him =) and i will haf a masters degree bf! sounds cool~
but yet, suddenly i was overcome by insecurities again. nus. hmm... a whole diff environment, diff culture, diff pple, diff experience. i dun like changes, find it difficult to adapt. okie, the truth is i'm worried. he'll meet more new, interesting pple *read: girls* there......
sigh. the problem is simple = me n my insecurities. like things the way they are, dun wanna change. but i know that change is inevitable. we both will experience diff things and grow in our separate environments. i cant hold onto him too tightly, cant make that mistake twice. can only trust and make the conscious choice of growing separately but not away.
my exams start on tues. everyone is mugging. i shldn't be worrying abt such unnecessary stuff. someone, anyone! pls strike me (with a magic wand or smthg, anything!) and turn me into a mug.
~~~ Angela 1:05 AM
