Thursday, June 30, 2005
upset but pressing on wiser
"that's it. i quit."
4 words i wish i can say.
but i've got my own principles. n i dun haf it in me to give up so easily. i see it as irresponsible and that is not my style at all. maybe bcoz of this, i have it tough.
my sponsorship manager pulled this stunt on me today. she's had enough of the crap our manager in charge of vivace gives us. its her choice n i couldn't stop her. do i admire her guts? not really, i see it as weakness. oh well....... sigh. she promised that she'll still help me on the sidelines but juz not officially and i'm really counting on that. i've fired another girl coz she doesn't deliver. my operations manager is in reservist. n my dumbdumb secretary went to take up internship w/o informing me. i scolded her lohz - such uncalled for and irresponsible behaviour. at least i've got a nice vicechair. so far, its still very much a 2man show.
this manager is really not very nice to work with. i realised that no matter how much passion u have for smthg, the environment u work in n people u work with/for can totally kill that passion. i guess this is wat is happening and the only thing keeping me going is my principles.
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i learnt smthg the hard way this couple of days which has made me very upset. i guess i need to change in order to survive in this harsh, selfish and lousy world. not to downgrade myself but juz to be more cautious, to love myself more and look out for my own needs more. coz others will not do that for me. people are selfish. its better never to trust.
~~~ Angela 11:02 PM
