Wednesday, August 17, 2005
hu2 si1 luan4 xiang3
hearing an old wuyinliangpin song in the car made me nostalgic.
it was yigencao n my song. i miss my secondary sch days. routine weekdays in sch, slogging hard n being the nerd that i was, coping with mood swings n those growing up emotions n problems. think i grew up the most during those years. life wasn't all that complicated i guess. with a simple goal of excelling in the big O. nothing more, nothing less.
at least i had sundays to look fwd to. fellowship with my mates in antioch junior youth fellowship. i truly had fun back then. learning way more abt God than i've ever had. singing catchy songs of praise. joining the choir n getting to sing in front of the entire congregation. serving God in the worship team, leading prayers n bible studies. publishing our monthly newsletter. planning future directions of our fellowship. mentoring younger ones. growing in the Lord with my frens. i certainly miss those days.
wat made me leave? the reasons so sure n clear then don't seem so now. bcoz ever since, the general direction i've been heading is none other than down. but as i told jeremy b4, "i decided to leave. i cannot go back. no point dwelling in the past."
i juz hope the future will be better. but i really doubt so. nothing is as simple or innocent as it used to be. i hate growing up n inevitably knowing more.
~~~ Angela 2:04 PM
