i'm turning 22 in like 2 days. reminded me of how wonderful my party was last year. dun think i'll haf another party for a very long time. so old oredi. birthdays no longer mean much to me - juz a reminder of the dreaded aging, the ticking of my biological clock. despite many strangers claiming that i look 18 or 19, i think otherwise. haf really aged significantly this 2 years - must be the late nites, lack of exercise and excessive worries.

i havent been really happy for a very long time. truly wonder wat's wrong. sometimes i do think i'm suffering from depression. that's why the bleak view of life and the future. then i start to think wat makes me happy? wat's the secret to unlocking my heart? even i, am not sure. so how can i expect others to cheer me up?

sigh. maybe the burden is too heavy. maybe i'm still not old enough to take it upon me with grace n maturity. so ironic rite....

haf been rather quick to anger lately. n it upsets the ones i love. but i think in the end, it upsets me the most. stupid girl.

for many years, my birthday wishes have always been largely the same simple wishes, but they never came true. it will be different this year, hopefully the outcome will be different as well.

~~~ Angela 9:35 AM

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