Thursday, July 09, 2009
met up with this vietnamese fren whom i was close to for awhile to a greyish point. he was in town for some training, and holding a job i used to dream of and pictured myself having.
he likes to ask me if i hav a bf. n my answer has always been "no, and i'm happy."
last nite, he grinned and asked, "at wat level of happiness?"
it struck a chord and i avoided the qns, moving to other more convenient topics.
at wat level of happiness really?
things could be better. things could be different. then again, so wat?! wat is happiness? fleeting emotions. no doubt a relationship can gimme some of those fleeting moments of happiness, maybe i'll even be in a state of bliss for a couple of weeks. eventually, things just gets back to normal. a relationship brings pain and struggles and so so so much more other feelings too.......
haiz. even when things seem grim, even when it all seems hopeless....
"Yet not my will, but Yours be done." (Luke 22:42b)
Some frens have taken the plunge into the unknown and leaving their jobs. which totally leaves me thinking why am i where i am?? i'm convinced still that i'm meant for so much more. n u're rite. the qns is: But What? haiz, strange hor.... nearly 2 yrs into the job and i'm still struggling with smthg of a fresh-grad.
haiz. even when things seem grim, even when it all seems hopeless....
"Yet not my will, but Yours be done" (Luke 22:42b)
Simply trust and my joy will be complete, in His time. =)
~~~ Angela 11:35 PM
