Sunday, June 20, 2010
Happy birthday to me :) I'm 26!
i'm turning 26 in abit. have never envisioned myself being where i'm at now. but also funny to just realise that i've never actually thought abt wat job i'll be doing in future when i was young. well, shows that it has never really been my focus...... so wat is it that i want??
i've been struggling with that question so many times in recent years and lately too! ever since my big boss asked me to think out of the box, ie existing org structure, and chart my own career path. wat izzit exactly
I want to achieve? its like second nature to box myself in, thinking beyond wat is already the system is just too unattainable and invites disappointment. a fren once commented that i've become guarded and in self-preservation mode. sigh, i've nv really been much of a big dreamer anyway.
when i think abt wat i want, its pretty simple. A family. a loving husband and beautiful kids.
not so simple when my life is void of eligible men. hahahaha. ok, not so exaggerated but u get the idea. nonetheless, i still completely believe in God's love for me. perhaps i'm like Snow White.... just in deep deep sleep and when the time is right, He'll open my eyes and there before me will be my Prince whom i've been dreaming of and praying for. he'll scoop me up and place me on his majestic white horse and i'll wave adios to all those painful waiting years.
AM I REALLY 26?????? hahaha. nahz, its not all that dreadful, singlehood i mean. just a different season which is absolutely necessary for my character building ;) its amazing how He has led me through.
Happy birthday to me :) I'm 26!
~~~ Angela 11:48 PM
